Today’s letter is supposed to be to “Someone you wish could forgive you,” and I don’t have anyone who fits that critera, so I want to tell you why.
Forgiveness isn’t about the transgression. It isn’t about the trespasser. It is about the person who must bear the hurt. You see, forgiving me doesn’t change me. It may assuage guilt, but really my emotion of the situation is irrelevant if you’re the one who was injured.
Because of this, I want everyone to forgive me. I want everyone I’ve ever hurt to be able to release that pain, to return themselves to whole, because there is nothing I can say or do to close that gap and set things right. I want those around me to be okay, to be free of injury and insult that I, and anyone else, may have inflicted upon them.
And so if you are one of those people that I’ve hurt- I am sorry. And I pray for you. I pray that you are able to come to peace with what I’ve done, for your own sake- because my guilt is my own, just as your pain in yours.
XOXO Sarah Mae